Hazwani’s

"My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me. So won’t you kill me, so I die happy. My heart is yours to fill or burst, to break or bury, or wear as jewelery, which ever you prefer"                

                                                                                                       -Dashboard Confessional’s Hands Down

which then led me to…

truth is me and the rest of the pet ‘05 forecast batch have been fed with the idea that we’re goin overseas [and some deluded with fanatic ideas of australian unis, and in some rare cases nz unis, ehem2, but what to do], so basically the idea have been implanted there that it really is not very exciting. in fact, it’s just like, naik tingkatan or darjah or something. you know it’s coming, you have an idea of what’s it gonna be like, only with going overseas there’s all the hype, visa, med checkup, bla3. dont even get me started on the shopping one has to do to go overseas. everything pun nak beli. and when ur done with all the shopping [not exactly, its more of a lifelong journey], you appreciate even more all the little things that made life in Malaysia your home. even a stinky ktm can become solace, you appreciate the cool blast of its aircond, you’re no longer stressed out over the traffic jams and take the time to appreciate the surroundings, you use the public toilets and suraus with absolutely no feeling of disgust, you eat all kinds of malaysian food that you never really bothered to eat before, you look at people and feel a profound sense of wonder that all of them are so.. uniquely Malaysian. (Awalludin, 2006)

haha.arent’t you just proud kim? i envy ur skills at writing such interesting, if not touching, posts. Your ‘unopened letter to the world’ is definitely a must-visit page. esp dulu la kan. on friday afternoons usually. ehem2. =]

i’m actually typing this while waiting to go for lunch. you see, i have loads or even tonnes of things to write about. but i seriously figured that i think faster than i type or write, which means by the time i sit here, ready to type a new post, semua pun hilang and then i just don’t know how to convey the msgs ive thought about days or weeks before. pretty frustrating. and when i force myself to ‘produce’ some written crap, memang sah2 jadi crap betul, tak tipu punyer.so yea, say my posts are getting dull etc (or drpd dulu dull kot?LOL), please don’t say i’m becoming stupid (hehe although there is a possibility it might be true).be kind okay?huhu

and…wah kamu budak2 dj boys and gals pegi futsal ya?sgt best?like apekah?kenapekah?dan di manakah? dev, moe, zam, zani semua join game aza and rakan2 ye.best gila ok.please please lets do something once im back in msia. specifically kepada eherrmmm yang dah plan trip ala2 camp Prs. i know u guys must have missed your ‘room’ kat PD tu.and when i can scream ‘WAT?’ so so loudly. they all have their significance aye? plus according to idzham end of this year semua kena meraikan ke-fly-an beliau. hello. others are leaving as well. shern ren, aza, idzham, i’ll see you ppl in aussie. chew ling and haizat, nz rite..?coolness. im not rich enough to go to the UK, ireland or Irbid. ok aziera, hidayah, alfian and suraiya? so yea.jumpa in msia only.

oh and yes Happy belated birthday to aziera, aza, ridzuan, sufya, yanna. many more you know who you are.

rite.so tonite we’ll be going to johnsonville and we are to perform our tari tualang tiga malay dance. which we have started practising for, since erm a month ago?or less than a month.entah. its this merdeka celebration hosted by the new zealand malaysian association.oh yes, Happy belated MERDEKA Malaysia. *kisses&hugs*. ive sort of this sense of satisfaction, since 2 months ago i’ve done the local ‘Kapahaka’ and now im with the WMSO team doing tari tualang tiga. one can never limit his or herself to only one culture and one way of life.

you see, now that brings me to the issue of G.U.B.R.A. being so called ‘perosak budaya’. haha.how hypocritical can we sometimes get. God, out of all the movies in Malaysia we choose to say gubra itu perosak budaya. come on, so it’s okay to be hugging and being affectionate in Sembilu etc etc but not gubra. just because the people involved in making sepet, rabun and gubra a success speak powderful england? wake up and smell the coffee! *slapslappunchthenjamukopi* i admit, the approach used in Yasmin Ahmad’s movies can be a bit over the hill, but isn’t it normal to have weaknesses which we then cure together, rather than finding in its every inch, a space to criticise, to condemn and then injure the whole production. truth is, from my observation, everything emerges from this element called JEAlousy. my respect goes to those who criticise the absolutely wrong and unnecessary scenes, but at the same time appreciates the effort that is being put in order to create something new in the industry.

the part i liked and like is that one when jason’s brother and orked were talking about malaysia being a multi-cultural country. it’s calming to know that there are ppl out there who appreciate and are very proud to be malaysians. haha i seriously like the lines they said. about alen wanting to migrate if there were only chinese in the country and orked wanting to run somewhere else if there were only malays in malaysia. God that is so true. i cannot imagine Malaysia having only one race, well literally lar(since we’re working on this having the Malaysian race, thats a different type of ‘race’) and i also don’t know why some people may think that things like say, inter-cultural marriage are extremely ‘foreign’ or impossible. Perhaps because of the type of schools i went to la kot yang buat my thinking this way. but honestly, i dislike even the sound of Malaysians naming or describing other Malaysians by race, unless lah its really needed in specific physical description. and by that i mean, erghh it just doesnt sound pleasant.

yeah, the good points such as the one above do not seem appealing to those yang suka condemn. oh and the scene bilal pegang anjing. God its not soo bad. why make a big fuss out of it. dah la ayat dia was ‘Nanti kena langgar lori lagi, siapa susah’ and then that dog just went away dengan kaki tempang. that was moving~!!!arrghh being the animal lover i am, thats just so kesiann..waaaa. and that, pun nak kena condemn gila2. aihh…do u even have a proof showing that tangan bilal or anjing tu basah ke, or bilal tu tak sertu and samak ke. im not a pro at these religious things, but my point is. we the hypocrites.

ah and of course, there was the following event of sharifah amani saying something like ‘i sound stupid if i speak malay’. ha ha ha. accurate interpretation is crucial! CRUCIAL. it may have meant ’saya punye bm tak bagus sgt, so saya cakap pun dengar cam tak best’ or well ‘memang kalau cakap bm ni saya kedengaran bodoh, sebab bm memang tak best’. eheheh so take your pick. it was wrong, but to make it a humongous issue, toksahla. ada banyak lagi issue yang perlu jadi headline berita. besides. to me it was a situation of benda yang undercover jadi lama dah (the issue of looking up kpd english instead of bm) just waiting for the covering bubble to burst. and so it did that nite. and only then barulah wahai malaysians bijaksana nak fikir yang it is quite a trend now for parents to teach their children english before they even know what ‘kendatipun’ means. haha tu analogi je kendatipun tu =p yeah u get my point. and then the sirent ‘tolong, tolong! BM dalam bahaya kepupusan’ gosh. learn and love the language. although you are aware that it is of limited use overseas, but still la, bahasa jiwa bangsa.alrite?

ah yes,wahai Chad, be really careful in ordering big companies out of your country. Losing 2 giant oil processing and producing companies isnt going to help your economy. Petronas and Chevron holds more than i think 60% of the oil-producing share di tempat anda tu. and i doubt they didn’t pay their taxes. hurm, controversies controversies.

and in case you are not aware, Malaysia gets her new KSN (ketua setiausaha negara, which happens to be the top spot dalam perkhidmatan awam) right about this moment. all the best Malaysia. may the perkhidmatan awam in our country improves a hell lot.hehe =] masuk office 8am ok?and do smile when dealing with others.sesungguhnya muka yang tak senyum itu sgt depressing, not only to your diri sendiri, malahan kepada orang yang memandang.

okay.so tonite off to johnsonville, and on monday im going to recite a poem for our majlis menyambut kemerdekaan bersama menteri pengajian tinggi malaysia, Dato’ Mustapa Mohamed. eheh we have met before, last year in putrajaya and i remember you but of course, who am i to be remembered.lol

after that its only the much awaited and anticipated Malaysian Night to be worried about. hehe bukan worry la.to be excited about je. the centre of gelisah-ness is undoubtedly, essay greek art yang belum start tapi dah kena submit, plus economics test yang belum di-study-kan lagi. well done untuk diri sendiri =]

*if my BM is getting worse, is my English getting any better? i wonder. you should too, one of the things we tend to ignore when studying overseas.hehe

"Comel demo royak comel, Putih jangan royak hitam"

                                                                   -Adaptasi Noraniza’s Hala Timur

‘Think about the love inside the strength of heart
Think about the heroes saving life in the dark
Climbing higher through the fire, time was running out
Never knowing you weren’t going to be coming down alive’

                                                             -Yellowcard’s Believe

Someone said to me once (while we were watching an old Malay movie), "Tengok orang dulu-dulu. Pandai menyanyi, menari dengan bercita je (since it was a typical taman bunga scene where you normally see tuan puteri dengan pujaan hatinya malu-malu as if there is nothing else to worry about). Macam la takde kerja lain." So it got me thinking. And from then on, my views on these matters always reflect ‘kesia-siaan masa’ and sadly, it was once a joy or a pride to have beauty but no brains. If you’re a girl especially, all you need to learn: skill melawa, skill tengok cermin 24-7, skill bercakap super lemah-lembut, skill memasak, skill menyanyi and ‘bermain-main’ di taman bunga.Haha amusingly I got that ‘bermain-main’ word to fit into the sentence as it was said once, in which cerita I don’t remember but it was this 19 year-old girl was asking her mother, if she could go ‘bermain-main’ di taman bunga. Wa ha ha ha ha. Too bad it’s no longer that way, no longer can we use the ‘I’m a girl’ reason to refuse books and university. ThankGod.

I was and still am a big big BIG big fan of the Jalan Ampas era movies and songs. I mean it is indeed amazing how the late Tan Sri P Ramlee worked hard to make people laugh, cry and not blink an eye while watching the epic or comedies. However it was the society yang presumed: Guys, physical strength. Ladies, beauty and inferiority towards men. So there they were, movies with all the anak-anak perempuan yang teramatlah vulnerable, and tujuan hidup: Cari husband yang gagah perkasa, kaya, berpangkat, and most importantly gorgeous-looking, though not ‘pretty’ la pulak kan. Ha ha. People with important positions, like Dato’ and datuks segala macam, kaya but selalunya jahat and Kings who weren’t smart enough to rule a country, not even a state and worse still not even his own self. God, if only democracy would work at that time, and if people would think brilliantly with a bit more logic. Movies movies.

Anyway, with all the flaws that you can see and analyze, there are still certain things that ought to be appreciated. Art, stage performances and quotes composed by the older generation at times boleh jadi source of intellectual, emotional and spiritual strength. In particular, gurindam for instance la kan. Exclude those jiwang ones, but consider those yang promote spiritual belief etc. It is pretty refreshing to hear them but unfortunately we now have very few listeners and writers.

Forget the jiwang element and you can find something in the piles of Sastera Melayu. And to those who think love, as in that love you ‘feel’ towards your partner is everything, think again. Family and spiritual type of love will get you somewhere, but obsessing puppy love, monkey love whatever love will not even get you through the rain. And back to the issue of girls from the previous era, it’s not wrong to be ‘presentable’ now, in fact you should try to be, but if that’s the only thing you have, no intelligence no nothing, that’s it you’re pretty much doomed. How mean can the world get? ;]

Oh a few days ago my dad called up and said DJ’s former headprefect won this award in South Australia, and so I checked the news out myself. Congratulations Justin Lee. He got the Most Outstanding Malaysian Student Award and mind you, that’s in Adelaide, not in PJ district. hehe. And I was reading Andrew’s blog posts, congratulations to him for winning the MENSA Epicurean Quiz. Congratulations Adrian Lim (who is still in Singapore i think?) for the outstanding victories in the National Economics Quiz Championship and that Toastmasters International Speech Competition. Congratulations SMKDJ for winning the 1st and 3rd at the Help Law Olympiad 2006. Gosh orang-orang pandai ni. Many of my friends have done it. Suraiya won that public speaking competition and went to London to represent the country, they too plus Shern Ren won the Datuk Wira National Debate Competition, and even if some didn’t win titles awards whatsoever, they are just superior. And myself? What’s my highest achievement so far? 6th in Malaysia. Shucks I need to do something to not remain dumb. And I don’t even speak correct English. How sad can life get? Ha ha.

Well my intelligence still hasn’t found a way to outdo my stupidity, but what I’m sure of, are the things I’d like to do once I’m home:

-Can you believe I haven’t done what I thought I’d do once I turn 18? Register to become a Puteri Umno member. Now that I’m 18 I still can’t because I need to take the form from the Umno head office. Shucks.

-I wish to watch a few stage performances, particularly those running in Istana Budaya and Bangsar Actor’s Studio. Its been months and not to mention, I missed Puteri Gunung Ledang the musical and Naga Tasik Chini.

-Go places, perhaps Jakarta and Bandung? Not to shop, but to admire the sceneries, just like how I’ve been admiring Wellington and other places in NZ.

-Meet up with college, high skool and primary skool friends. I hope I’m not forgotten, well at least not yet.

- Make mak abah proud.hehe

Thanks to somebody, I now feel that the things I write about and how I write them are getting very stereotypical. *sigh*

Signing off, the geek who loves Malaysian history.

‘Hidup umpama tidur dan mimpi. Bila terjaga, Ya Allah Ya Saidi’

                                                            -Noraniza Idris’ Ya Allah Ya Saidi

I slept at 5.40pm and woke up at 8.13pm!

imagine, thats how tired i was hari ni. and mind u, im not quite the person yg selalu ambik afternoon or early evening nap, well at least since i came to wellington la kan. Had 4 lectures and a tutorial today, and thank God i wasn’t feeling sleepy or anything, probably cos i was reading, and scanning and skimming my greek art subject notes and textbook. i even told nana and farah i somehow wish to just switch my major to something to do with classics.Lol no lah, economics is indeed my utmost priority.

And clever me, just cos i dont wanna go to uni on friday, Ive 5-6 classes on both Wednesday and Friday. and i even go for that study group they set up for greek art subject.

alrite im gonna start writing on how eventful last week was. actually it all began less than 2 weeks before july 27th, when i received a birthday card from my family.haha awfully missing them.but yea, all 4 of them signed the card plus there was also the drawing of chester and chenode, amusingly adorable. so yea, i wasnt quite looking forward to turning 18,but since that dat, terasa jugak la excited sket2. thanks abah mak memek and hana! haha and knowing abah, he sent the card wayyy in advance. mak said of course la..dier takut lambat la ape lah.yes bah, jgn lekeh2 kan? ;]

and i almost had a heart attack on the night of tuesday july 18th. went to classes like usual, and attended a short meeting in the library. went back at about 8, i think. passed by the lovely green kelburn park, well ok not exactly green at nite but yea u get me. thought of going to bed early that nite, but decided to watch walk the line instead. but my eyes were already half-closed when i received text msgs frm faris, asking how my day was etc. had no clue wat wat happening. and perhaps because i didnt reply, he called. he was asking me to open the door cos kononnye nana and farah were told to give me something that very nite and being the sleepy hazwani, i hesitated la at first.keluar la dialogue monolog dalaman like ‘malas gilerrr arrhh jgn kacau la sedap2 duduk atas katil bawah duvet’ and ‘ish apehalnyer ni..takleh tgk org sng ke’..haha jk!

and jeng jeng jengggg, it was likely to be my loudest ‘OMG’ so far, faris was standing there with his bag and upon hearing that loud noise i made, nana and farah rushed out. chey buat suspend je.they opened the weir hse door for faris earlier and god god.was i suprised.for a moment there i didnt noe wat to think.and i went like ‘whats he doing here’..chey siap tanyer plak kat 2 org gals ni yg masa tu dah giggle2 cam gile. so yea as expected i didnt finish watching the movie and went to sleep instead. tido dlm keadaan terkejut bahaya ke?hopefully not. but heaven knows, i was extremely shocked. sedap hati je call and text cam biasa.mentang2 dah ader international roaming. =]

things went like normal for the next few days. went out for coffee ramai2, laughed like crazy, like thats unusual la kan.padahal selalu je got drunk without even drinking.

on my birthday eve, farah and faris went out like lama giler. i came back from my tutorial pun duduk je la bilik and i was doing my work or something like that, when they got back and it was then about 7pm. so yea, we gals went for weir dinner and suprisingly he belum dinner masa tu. he covered up by saying ali and shaz were out so he left just like that. liar2 pants on fire.so yea i continued doing my work until about 11pm when ali called and he asked how come i didnt wanna get my food at his place. ergh takut dah dgn ali. in the end yang kena marah is faris.cos i thought he was the one yg malas gi turun ambik food so then we had to go down lah at about 11 something.isk i was nagging, nagging and nagging. and just perfect, i ate again but faris couldnt cos it was seafood for that day’s dinner so ali was so generous to be preparing ayam masak ape entah la (but sedap!). i was thinking gak how come ali cam willing gila masak in the middle of the nite, and when he was occupied with his laptop.so yea, it was already 12,and i repeated over and over again nak balik weir. then…

i saw lights of candles coming from the doorway and a bunch of ppl were singing a bday song for me. Lord wasn’t that just great!aihh thanks u guys for willingly going there kul 12 lebih!it was a lovely dark chocolate cake, and they even brought colourful balloons of all sizes, hehe. sufya made me a pie-size muffin, and together we ate and laughed and snapped photos. Thanks farah faris nana ali shaz daz nonie vivian afiqah and sufya! it was absolutely a suprise.i didnt see it coming at all!

went back up to weir. and again monologue dalaman, camne pulak tak kunci pintu ni.isk.cos usually ill always lock my door when i go out, even to the laundry room or the dining hall. there it was, on my bed, faris asked farah to place his presents for me. like omg i got that perfume i have always wanted!! lovely by sarah jessica parker.oh my God.haha looks like i dont have to get it sendiri lah since dah ada.and there was also the photo frame with our pictures on it and like usual, that greeting card which i could only understand if i had a dictionary with me =] farah pulak gave me a card with a giraffe on it!haha beat that!best gila giraffe ni. thanks farah!and thanks to vivian as well for the chocolates.and to sufya too! a definite thanks to asiah, who actually sent me a card with so many signatures in it!waaaa terharu!!thanks izyan,nada,effy,aca,ka-mun,munzir,che ah,mun, farid,rahim!!!

the next day, went to 5 classes and came back a bit exhausted.faris said we were to go out for dinner that nite, so i decided to take a rest, i entirely thought dinner was at some msian restaurant ke ape, and then we went lah when he said all of the sudden we had to drop by montreaux cos he left something there.i thought we were in a rush so cam cepat2 la naik then he asked me to wait before the door and he went in. a few moments later i was invited to go in as he said he couldnt find wat he was searching for. pandai la. again an enormous suprise for me, it was all a set-up, and there it was, a table for 2 rite in the middle of the living room of ali and shaz’s apartment.it was so touching, thinking that he had done it all with some help from our fellow frens. our very own candle-light dinner, with him preparing such a great meal, waaaaa it was just indescribable! he even came out from the room and handed me a bouquet of white roses!for dessert we even had my fav fruit, seedless red grapes =] it was just so moving. the shock, and as if that wasnt enough, the songs which were playing were songs i loved and love.to c1001 gals: one of them was only one by yellowcard!haha god god. the food was awesome and im embarassed now that i noe he cooks better than i do.

later that nite we went out for coffee with farah and nonie.haha gals, remember that joke about kucing and kucing frm serata malaysia esp frm kelantan tu. that was hilarious.nonie..nonie..hahaha.and so i thought my birthday celebration ended rite there.i was happy enough, in fact very glad. when i came back, i received a birthday card from the A floor ppl.lukas and others signed it =]

the next day since i had no classes at all i stayed in my room and watched dvds.received a birthday card from qatratul nada!!!my dear fren in canberra!!!thanks gal!!nana went out and then farah did the same. but it was weird enough that farah had to tell me via ym.hehe innocent farah!and then that evening she called me, and said that nonie invited all of us for dinner at curry village, kononnye nak belanja pali, whose birthday was about a week before mine. so i got ready and went down, walked real fast since we were already late and finally saw nana and farah waiting in front of curry village. they were both dressed up, and we waited la jap, with nana wanting to take photos etc.hehe.and then she told us we had to go to istana msia, since kononnya curry village dah fully booked.ha ha =p

farah let me in, and again i was suprised. many of my frens and seniors were there, and they sang a birthday song for me when i stepped in.arrrhhh terharu lagi.brape byk la ke-terharu-an this year.lol there was a carrot cake, and it looked lovely!tp ada 7 candles, for i dont noe what reason.hahaah fav number kot?boleh la tu.but yea after snapping photos with the cake, it was then pali’s turn to be celebrated. we sang a birthday song for him and that guy was indeed caught offguard.langsung tak tau :p

potong2 cake semua, had dinner, sembang2.i seriously did not expect the number of ppl yang ada kat situ. gosh thank u so so much ppl.one of my greatest shock juga adalah semasa dpt presents. arrhhh again i so thank u guys and gals. the first one i got was MAC mascara, eyeliner and lip gloss frm nonie farah nana pah and husna!thank u galssss~!!!hahaha never dreamt of getting MAC stuff. thanks to ali for the karen walker scarf!!shaz and daz for the handbag!!kak najah for the perfume!!sufya afiqah and sufya’s significant other for the cute frog!!deedee for the book of quotes!!nadiah for the novel!!thanksss!!!ida!eli!su!ainee!kid!deli!semualah yg dtg and drop by!semua…SEMUA~!!!!

and to those yang hantar testimonials, i hope ive replied semua, same goes with those yg hantar ym msgs frster msgs and text msgs, thank u!!!heheh frens in msia yg hantar msg kul 4 pagi nz, thank u!!!chien hui alfian nazrul!!and i woke up to read ur msgs tau!!and yes, shern ren, thanks for calling that nite!!!waaaa u guys r just so great!errgghhh its too wonderful for words!

and yes, im aware that my 18th birthday was celebrated 3 times, and i thank u ppl so so much, its just inexpressible what u have done. nana farah nonie!!thank u!!hehe i noe i can be quite a pain, and irritating, and annoying, so i wish to thank u guys for standing by me, and celebrating this birthday beyond my expectation pun..!i thought cam this year takder la ape2 sgt, since we’re all far away frm home, and i couldnt expect much since everyone was busy with tests assignments etc.but u guys have just made me feel even more comfortable, and happy being here.much thanks.much love.

hehe so yea it was indeed eventful kan.and on that saturday nite we had our mock raya session, and yea we gals were all wearing baju kurung and kebayas, simply fun!!snapped photos here, there, everywhere, and thanks to wmso’s food and beverage committee, dpt merasa ketupat nasi with kuah kacang, lontong and beriyani plus lots of dessert!!!waaaa thanksss!!sedap betul.memorable week!!!

hehe and i suppose next week and the week after will be memorable as well. my art work analysis is due on friday, and after that i still have econs assignment, and a few tests.before our break which starts on the 19th!hehe so yea, this semester is unquestionably short!then another 2 months after cuti, cuti lagi and that cuti is certainly the best!balik msia woohooo~!!!!hehehe but for now im just gonna call my parents tanye kabar.

off i go.cheers.

Finally! here i am typing a post for this blog. God its been weeks since i last posted something.even on my frenster profile.

I had the longest 2 weeks of my life recently. ye ke?ha betul la.started off with my flight to christchurch on june 29th at 8 am. went to the airport yg ‘wild at heart’ tu early in the morning kul 6 lebih.together with nonie nana farah beng shaz aca and daz. rombongan ke christchurch?precisely.

we arrived there at about 9 something, almost 10 in the morning. farid and anne were very kind to pick us up at the airport.and biasalah.it was sunny yet very cold. nama pun south island. so the guys went to farid’s place and we the gals went to muneera’s place.we took a short nap, since che ah pun sgt baik hati memberikan katilnye kepada kami. met kak nik, who mentioned i dont look like Hana at all.haha, so Hana, bangga ke sedih?huhu. later that day, we went to the guys’ place and good Lord, dorang pandai masak! =] jumpa munzir, rahim, lam, bernard and a few of their seniors as well. and asiah, im sure u like the wallet yg by now u sure dah dpt punyer =] cheers to u both. and happy belated birthday to asiah.sorry i went to queenstown without meeting u first.tu la sape suruh fly a day later than i did.

alritey.rite after that we went to the city. to cathedral sq esp, snapped photos and it was a fun trip naik bus ramai2. that huge chess set. ahh entah bila dpt main lagi. that nite, went back to the gals’ place dulu, then rahim called cakap nak pegi airport to welcome faris yg baru nak dtg nz. off we went and after lepak kejap, went back to get some sleep before heading off to queenstown the next morning.

started our journey to queenstown at 8am by bus. everything went well until we lost nana.haha it was a real scary experience.so, an advice to everyone.never let a fren hilang tgh2 jalan or else u wont get to enjoy the beautiful sceneries throughout the whole way and time yg dier hilang tu.haha hint hint. and at lake tekapo. i think that was the most memorable stop. with everything covered in snow, it was simply mesmerizing. we resumed the journey with a big plonk of relief dlm hati masing2.haha

reached queenstown at about 4pm and then tried to find our accommodation spot. ah and it turned out to be very2 far frm the town centre. tapi it was alrite, at least we saw snow-capped mountains around us. our cabins weren’t that big.but they were good enough to protect us frm the extremes of snow and sunshine.

june 30th: did nothing much that night since malas nak turun town. stayed in our cabins sambil makan roti and soup.great way to diet.

july 1st: went down to the city, went to the information centre to book our activities. and after deciding wat to do for the next few days, went around town walking when we saw this queenstown duck trip both on land and water.curiosity made us want to get on it and gelak beramai2. off we went and thankfully the driver wasn’t at all boring.so although the trip was a bit slow, we reckoned that it was worth it, since it was our first day there and we did not quite noe wheres where. and it was then that we saw a few locations the lotr crew guna. went up and down hills and saw the crossbreed between kambings and llamas.i think la.adorable!

after that tour we bought some stuff at the supermarket and off we went, back to our cabins.

july 2nd: that very day our adventures started. we began by going down  straight to the canyon swing office. initially we wanted to do bungy jumping, but the officers at the tourism centre said that the canyon swing would be much more of a thrill. and since the height of free fall semua tu nak dekat sama, in fact canyon swing siap boleh swing2 in the air lagi, we all decided to do it instead of bungy jumping. so up we went to the hills and queenstown canyons and waited nervously for our turns. pictures and movies taken, i did the pin-drop style masa jump. it was undoubtedly scary at first but it became nothing after jatuh tu. kudos to nana, farah, beng and myself for doing the canyon swing.haha and to nonie, takpe2 next time we shall go there again and u buat pulak masa tu.

next up was the shotover hi-5 combo. went back to town and got to the shotover jet spot by bus. the shotover jet thingy was extremely awesome laaaa!! haha the 360 degree spins were great sampai nana and i got a lil sick as we were fasting that day. but the scenery was exceptionally cantik as well!!it was almost like the white-water rafting route, just that it was a lil wider. so at the same time we got inspired nanti nak buat white water rafting pulak.ambitious us.

went on a helicopter ride and again, we saw beautiful queenstown, dah la mostly covered in white snow. the helicopter took us to the skyline, where we went for our 3-round luge trip down the hill. after dah puas pegang and baling snow, bought souvenirs and went down dgn gondola. fun fun.

july 3rd: nonie and farah went off for their hanggliding sessions. bravo to them, for flying above the land of queenstown. haha and it was amusing that farah thought yg her pilot wasnt as good looking as nonie’s. nasib la gal ;]

at around 1pm we waited for our trip to walter peak pulak, via the tour on lake wakatipu. tss earnslaw (the boat) was amazingly old. its the same age as titanic if im not mistaken. and yea we went on it to get to walter peak. walter peak turned out to be magnificent!!!cantik sgt esp the kambings and bisons there. God2 i just enjoyed feeding them dgn makanan yg bau tak best sgt but im glad ive pictures taken with them! jumpa saudara la katakan! we saw merinos. highland cattles, etc. we even saw how the sheepdog jaga kambing2. had tea, scones and blueberry pancakes.it was just so very nice.with the amazing scenery.nothing beats a vacation at walter peak.plus its quite a quiet place with only mountains and farms around. historical too.

before going back up to our cabins, menggatal pegi thai restaurant and had steamboat tomyam! god i miss thai food. that sour and spicy taste of tomyam and steam fish.eeekkk

july 4th: rushed down to town. it was snowing btw!haha sempat jugak snow while we were still there. but too bad we had to leave for dunedin that morning. the 4 hr journey was short, since i was asleep most of the time and buka2 mata, dah sampai dunedin. saw cumberland st and i knew we had to go there cos thats where the cadbury factory is.haha. again went to search for our already-booked accommodation. this time the cabin was much bigger. in fact there were a few extra beds~!

right after settling down we went to the edgar sports centre.there were so many ppl and i was glad to meet many of the seniors and frens frm the many parts of nz.

july 5th and 6th: pretty much the same things we did those 2 days. went to give some support to the wmso team yg berhempas pulas main mcm2 game. god they must have been so exhausted, the whole week main volleyball, handball, futsal, netball etc. one of the nites went to the cinema and watched click.boleh tahan la cerita dier but its pretty much similar to bruce almighty.

july 7th: went to dunedin’s octagon, had fish and chips for lunch and went to cumberland hall to get ready for the closing dinner. oh yea went for the cadbury tour and god the smell of chocolates!!boleh jadi gilaaa!!!!

thanks to farid for letting us use his room that evening. the dinner was just okay, the food was good but the whole event was just too draggy. got tired and sleepy right after.

july 8th: bad news, my initial 8am flight was cancelled so i had to book the 11.20am flight back to wellington instead. went to the airport while nana farah and nonie were still asleep, hahaha it was just hilarious to see them say goodbye sambil tutup mata.lol u cute gals. thankful i was, flight tak delay ke ape although earlier that morning byk flights were cancelled. arrived in wellington that noon and headed straight to montreaux. went back to weir and got my laundry done, went back to montreaux and came back up.isk2 letih.but yeah that nite faris came to weir and then ali invited us over for dinner and a few games of articulate and mafia. and luqman introduced the katak game.haha that nite semua org bising but too bad i had to go off early,since tak pack lagi masa tu for sydney.

july 9th: went to the ‘wild at heart’ airport at 4 am.ahh ali and i couldnt help it and we just slept while waiting to board the plane. our 3 hr journey was short as we slept throughout.tgk2 dah sampai.and the breakfast they offered pun tak menarik.lol.at the sydney airport, we wanted to take the train to the hotel, but tgk2 dah ade org dtg, and she was holding the sign ‘welcome petronas scholars’. so yea, had coffee first and off we went, to the hotel where all the petronas seniors and club representitives were staying. couldnt check in as it was too early so we went to paddy’s market and was amazed at how cheap things were.ahh mcm ni tak boleh duduk oz.boleh bankrupt =]

went to the sydney harbour bridge, snapped a few photos and went back to the hotel.and the canberra ppl were already there!wah meriah sikit.

that nite we went to the briefing and it was just a great experience to see seniors all clad in suits and formal attire, and best part was, they were about to graduate, insyaAllah secure a job and go back to msia.

july 10th: Italy won the wc!!!bravo azzurris~!! Hana just couldnt wait to text me kan? alfian too.lol.yes lah italians =] anyway that morning we went to the sydney fish market, with hana, firdaus, wafi, azreen and eizaz. too bad they had to go back to canberra. ali shaz and i then went for a ferry ride frm circular quay to darling harbour. took pictures and they went off to shop, and as for me i went to the sydney aquarium. after that went around the city for a while before heading back to the hotel to pick up my luggage. went to the airport via train and came back to beloved wellington.

july 11th-now: im taking 4 subjects this trimester. and im beginning to feel tired already.baru first week. the thing is, this time ive my econs class at 10am. which is so inconvenient compared to last trimester, when i had only a few classes yg tu pun start at 1pm the earliest.eekkk

and yes, i really need to pay special attention to this new subject im taking.that is greek art.haha God help me. oh anyway aca left welly last sunday, luqman last wednesday, aimran last monday and faris this morning. farah and i got very nostalgic tadi.perhaps because of the rainy weather. isk. we just cant wait till its the hols again. no worries, life is meant to be lived.

to the residents of 16 ss4a/4a, i love u~!

cheers.

a friend once said, if u wish to please everyone, u’ll end up pleasing no one.

its actually a very well-known phrase. but how well are we applying it in our everyday life? every single time, we keep on telling ourselves that there is a way or there is a chance for everybody to just feel happy. i dont noe anymore. i mean. it is nicely written in my head that most of the time we have to be considerate, selfless, etc. but i just noticed that however hard u try to keep urself calm and composed, and the moment u think everyones alrite with wat u do or dont do, suddenly, theres this indicator, which came out of nowhere, telling u that the whole process is covered with flaws. i hate it when that happens. if u noe what kind of person i am, i dont like things to be incomplete, nor do i favour issues with negative consequences.

i noe its wrong to just be like that, but i cant help it. there was once, a good fren was telling me that this another fren happened to be restless and miserable if theres somebody out there yg tak suka dia. at that time i agreed, alah u noe why would u wanna care. its just simply immature. but come to think of it, its somewhat true. but its either u just keep mute of ure bold enough to say it out loud. since i believe in karma, i feel that its never good to hate people or even things. or at least not to say it in clear words and context. and the reason why i opt not to curse, karma jugak la.and personally i feel that it will somehow like gelapkan minda.erm read that in an article somewhere.i dont quite remember though.

yes most of the time im a serious, no-nonsense type of person. but alar once in a while u just have to let loose. and like now, for instance, im neutral, feeling nothing extreme that is. haha im not too sure if im easily provoked? that is up to the judge. or maybe THE Judge. and i honestly don’t favour situations when my issues of concern arent even a thing thought by others. so yea, i mean i think i can tahan. but that’s pretty much it.

btw this is disappointing :  http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2006/6/26/nation/14653885&sec=nation

will write more on this later.

oh btw aca and aimi came to wellington. aimi’s gone back to melb and aca’s here, she cooked for us last nite.sedap~!!and the nite before we went to istana malaysia.it was dee dee’s belated birthday celebration. many ppl came it was a great one!with bday cake, bday song etc =]

oh yea and on thursday morning sora left wellington for korea.shes been here for about 6 months and that nite before she left, we went to her room to take her address etc. took photos and then said gdbye.hopefully she’ll remember us malaysians well.

actually many things happened and many places went. even porirua for go kart. beautiful event.huhu

cheers.

1. Ikan patin masak asam pedas tempoyak

2. Rebung masak lemak cili api

3. Sambal belimbing

4. Ikan keli goreng berlada(kepala kena buang, ok?) Nama modern - catfish with chili

5. Ikan pari bakar with air asam/cili kicap

6. Nasi panas with air asam/ikan masin/ikan perkasam/budu

7. Asam pedas with telur masin

8. Tengok abah makan ikan terubok sambil pakai glasses cari tulang

9. Tengok Hazreena and mak makan masak lemak siput sedut.slurrppp ;p

10. Singgah for ice cream kat Bentong town.

11. Laksa Teluk Kechai dekat jalan pergi Kuala Kedah

12. Singgah for kuih before sampai Jalan Sultanah, pulut udang etc

13. Breakfast nasi lemak depan TNB & Pacific

14. Bihun sup kedai corner dekat pharmacy. Make it hot, letak sambal sampai kuah jadi dark

15. Toast with kaya, old style kat kopitiam corner dekat pharmacy, with dark coffee

16. Ice blended for me, coffee for mak and abah kat Kemaman Kopitiam, Kuantan branch

17. Singgah for durian or manggis on the way balik from Raub or Cameron Highlands

18. All kinds of masakan ikan keli, kat bawah pokok Sawa, Perlis.

19. Pahang again, batang keladi masak asam. Sinfully lazat! if ure lucky tak gatal2 la makan keladi =]

20. Ni mana2 je ada, jantung pisang, dgn air asam. Fantabulously sedap!

*no 1-4 and no 9 boleh didapati di Raub atau Temerloh, Pahang.

*no 11-15 boleh didapati di Alor Setar, Kedah

Sekian terima kasih.

This post will surely make memek laugh dgn sukahatinya. Yeslah ikan patin beware. and fyi, Temerloh is Malaysia’s Bandar Ikan Patin.

right now im alone here in my room, nana and farah are not in. so yea im pretty much doing wat i really love to do, which is stay in bed, listen to some evergreen songs(this time its sheila majid) and type a post.

i feel so good now compared to a few hours ago. i figured the best way to let it all out is by opening up.dont cling to the same routine everyday or to the same grp of ppl or watever la yg sama2 tu. i hate being clingy anyway.so yea, i just managed to catch up with some frens a while ago.and now i feel so good, knowing that my existence is much to their awareness.haha sounds super pelik but who cares.

yea as i was saying. have u even read that when u actually hate certain ppl, or certain places or certain something, and u take time to actually think about it, it takes so much of ur time, and ur happiness. im being frank here, totally. so yea, if u happen not to like something or someplace or someone, let it go.theres absolutely no use to figure out how u can hate it even more.haha like buang masa gila ok?and buang tenaga and ure just wasting the chance of laughing and smiling.it turns u into someone miserable, someone uptight and entah some other bad qualities will slip in la. try it for once. i just wish i would realise this everytime i start to feel depressed about something.

so key word: open up!

its all u need to do to feel good.trust me.if u keep on whining, complaining etc, wat do u get?money?haha jauh sekali.

so it is all connected to being grateful. being thankful for wat u have, not what u dont have. a close example would be me and my internet connection.i so thank God i have it cos with it i can simply kacau some of the ppl i noe and kacau hidup dorang.hehe.although i cant exactly go to shopping malls cam kat msia dulu because kat sini mana ada, but who cares, all im saying is that, look at the bright side of things, not just wat u see with ur naked eye. ur heart can do better with all this visualisation work tau.believe me.

its so cold today.it was raining since yesterday. and so my window pun dah covered with kabus.and god i just did not realise the pokok i can see ni pun dah botak.dah botak lama dah.but tu la, we never see the beauty, we only stress on looking at what we want.which is unfair cos ure not doing ur eyes and soul justice.

and since im here, i should be thanking God that i can actually see things i didnt get to see all my 17 years in msia. but tula its just very foreign to our brains, we just tend to be selfish. DON’T BE. if u let it happen, cam rugi gila.

haha some ppl might think trying to be positive is pure time-wasting and that u only have to pretend doing it in the hall when the motivation talk is being held.haha no no its time to LEARN. just take some time off, learn that ure not complete just yet, uve got a long way to go and start, this very moment. ive heard so many stories about ppl getting depressed, devastated to the maximum till its just impossible to think him/her as someone who can actually think positive once in a while, but mind u, if u r able to change things, y not?give it a try and see how good things can turn out to be.

by the way im glad argentina won that game against ivory coast.and i cant wait till its italy’s turn to take on the game against ghana. wishing del piero goodluck, i really hope he will play this time.dulu cam ape je dier main like last 10 or 15 mins, mmg la tak menang.i think it was against korea?hurm takpe takpe.

and to my dj frens.sorry 2-3 hari ni asyik menggedik je.haha perasan pulak tu.im truly sorry.haha but yea i mean wat i said.LOL so u guys and gals, be nice and dont talk behind my back unless ure saying good things about me.and to ppl in wellington.i have seen u ppl in ages.semua sibuk study?goodluck.and to those in australia, u shud be supporting that country’s football theme.haha kidding. but yea i miss u guys.to my family, nani nak makan sedap and nak kucing dua2 tu.tell them i feel like nak peluk2 sampai dorang takleh nafas.hehe

cheers.

Performed Isyak prayers and am now blogging while memakai mask.quite a relaxing thing to do, and sitting in this dark room is just perfect after feeling as if a plonk of relief like jatuh dari langit setelah menduduki econ130 exam this morning. just like fcom, i refuse to talk about it too much.wats done is done and im just praying that i’d get something i wont be ashamed of.

called mak and abah. mak totally understood how i felt and how im feeling tonite. alfian jahat. just had to make me jealous and sad for the fact that they ie alfian,aza,aziera,sunan,nazmi,fadhilah,su semua lah will be attending hidayah’s family’s kenduri tonite. my mom is going jugak.since its now almost 7pm in msia, i bet semua tgh get ready la ni.haha and kalau ader yg janji pegi sama2 tu, it would be ‘lepas maghrib’ jumpa kinda plan.lol.typical yet i like!

aziera and hidayah were among the first frens i made when i first went to dj. masa tu i didnt even noe school students have to sing the state song during the assembly.kl mana ada state song.previously i was in skbd.haha group2 1 merbau tu! i can hardly believe that happened 6 years ago.lol.but neways it started off when we attended aza’s sister’s wedding last year, and i thought maybe it would be really2 nice to have the gatherings like once in a while bila ada siblings kawan kahwin.haha.its just the atmosphere that makes me like attending functions like this so much.cam dah la jumpa kawan, and u noe, its a big deal, a kenduri!!haha.well well next nanti saper punyer?sufya’s bro or sis?or my sister maybe?haha im talking uncertainty.but yea im just stressing the point yg best betul ‘berkampung’ mcm ni.although i menumpang je kat dj.alar sunan pun?haha we kj ppl just like to hop and join the crowd.haha and come to think of it aziera’s no longer in kampung dj.and su isnt staying in dj.and yea i think hidayah did mention oi yee as one of her guests masa nikah or something?which is soo cool.cam haha im so glad i actually went to dj.and not kj.or even sri aman?no offence but i mean its just fun in dj.we had all types of ppl.inspiring surgeon,inspiring dentist pun pernah ader im not sure sekarang camner, inspiring accountant, journalist, inspiring politician pun lagi ade. doctors takyah cakap la.haha u ppl yg terasa, cepat terasa cepat. i miss u guys like gila.

ohyea on the way back frm satay kajang, went to timezone to just recheck my powercard.apparently i still have 7bucks in it.and when i went back to weir i discovered a dollar sixty in one of my handbag compartments. haha untung tuka2 handbag.who knoes u just happen to find hidden harta dlm tu after a period of time.kalau dah simpan in commercial banks dah naik money supply dah.and wats up with this australian 5c i found in my wallet?haha like it ought to be in the foreign reserve kat reserve bank nz.hurm too much econs la this week.but yea i still think economics okay.just wait till ive to do the 200 level paper next year.or yea, my int business papers pun next year.

its gonna be another 2 weeks without classes until i sit for my last paper, quan102.statistics, which again not too bad la.boleh tahan best.kalau boleh jawab obviously.so well now im just going to watch dvds and figure out wat to do for the next few days.

im so abducted, taken to the land of history and memories.haha ni bukan jiwang.saya anti-jiwang.LOL btw that day while waiting for our meal to arrive we were talking bout geography lah, history lah which were compulsory during high skool.haha and then the chain just linked us to talking bout lulu, doraemon, joe jambul, along, siti sifir etc.amusing i tell u. paling tak tahan masa cakap pasal joe jambul and how we all felt so marah when contestant tak dapat jwb soalan senang.like HAHA. while walking we were talking bout sending raya cards masa bulan puasa.another funny issue.those pantun puasa tak cukup takleh raya, pantun brape pasang baju raya, kuih raya ade ke tak.

nothings worrying me now Alhamdulillah.and thanks Chien Hui for wishing me luck when i really needed it.hehe gdluck to u alrite?my last paper 22nd ler, so yea, tak banyak beza with ur final one eyh?

im off for now.cheers.

Sat for my fcom test last saturday. it was alrite but i refuse to discuss further. biasalah paper dah lepas, its useless pointing wat u did and did not do.

called mak ngah and mak abah tadi.mak ngah got excited when i told her im going down to the south island this winter.knowing how beautiful nz is, she was telling me to go to mt cook etc. being a traveller herself, she just got back frm perth. its just neat kan when ure able to go places and see.just see.no shopping.lol

well well ’see’.its just a word made up of only 3 alphabets but it means a whole lot of things. since i no longer have classes watsoever for this one month i decide to make full use of the internet connection yg sentiasa ada depan mata ni. if last time i used to only read the msian news like only once in a while.now lets try doing it everyday.at least ill noe whats going on and spare the time mak has to use to tell me wats happening. esp when the news involve ppl u noe.its neat and its pretty much worth ur time to be aware.

ive never mentioned this before.but everytime i get to chat or talk bout things like Islam, and how well we’re doing in applying and preserving it (hurm somehow i feel the word preserve isnt too right.but yea u noe wat i mean). all around the world we have frens residing and studying or working. its really nice to be in touch and to actually chat about things u may not really wanna talk bout with the frens u constantly meet. its actually very refreshing, rather than having wat u see physically being so much involved in ur daily conversations. and its fantabulous if u can just contribute a thing or two.at least u dont feel too dumb or ignorant.and knowing that u r exposing urself to being very ‘incomplete’ in a foreign land, it gives u the feeling of not being empty and that there are things u just have to noe.as a person, and as a believer.

recently some things just got me thinking, hence the new title for this page. and the specific issue ive been pondering upon is pretty much the behaviour or attitude we choose to hold on tightly to. regardless of who we are and where we’re now. even if ure not a believer of Islam u may want to think bout this as well. purely up2urself.but yea, all the things ppl do.and say. its just super amazing that God loves you no matter what. u, being very restless of complete decency and making fun of the faith u assume ure holding, think its ur right of being amazingly blessed with such a beautiful life. is that hillarious or what? and havent u thought of the fact that there are ppl out there, who constantly remember God and their obligations to Him, but now are suffering of hunger or even having death approaching their doorsteps? thats a test to see whos the firm believer.

if u happen to be a lil unlucky, and that u just do not own the chance of learning about the faith u r to believe, then it isnt completely ur fault.well its depends la on the condition. i mean some ppl just dont realise the need to get the in-depth of life. so yea may God show the light. but to u, if u have all the time in the world u can use and all the ppl u can ask to actually bother about whats right and whats not, esp things which ure not even allowed to approach, its just extremely sad if u ignore the path. its SAD. its not at all awesome when u try to become someone who is just not keen on getting pahala. its not. its not cool, nor is it beneficial. its not something to be proud of, nor is it a trophy u can smile about. and to those purposely looking to damage all the good deeds ur parents have been feeding u with, shame on u and u r nothing but a wannabe. i am indeed reminding myself.

why is it that for me, everytime i try to consciously strengthen this belief i have, i fail. it will only last for the longest a few days. what is it about this negativity? but somehow i appreciate the moments when i just happen to realise what i am and why i am here. and anyway, i think i noe the feeling of trying to show that ure not like anyone else, to show that ure no longer that ‘bodoh2 kid’ on the streets or even to show ure no longer that budak ppl used to look down on. but there are just various ways to do that. the best i would say, is to be someone on top. and being on top because of the stairs of effort, and also because of the pull Allah has until u can actually reach the peak above everyone else. ull see the difference between the outcomes of a person whos desperately showing off, and an individual whos being very much loved by the Almighty because of the perseverance he or she has. i would wanna be the latter. God please.

these are stories from the ppl i consider lucky : http://www.usc.edu/dept/MSA/newmuslims/

and the link abs gave : http://turntoislam.com/content/view/111/27/

both are interesting. the second one esp, the videos, one on yvonne ridley.ive yet to watch the yusuf islam video, but yea hopefully i will soon. the stories are equally awesome.

currently listening to sheila majid’s kumohon.real stuff.

and thanks faris, for the bouquet of very beautiful roses.and the chocolates, although theyre going to add kgs to my weight.

ive no idea why im typing a post when i have a paper on friday.so im off for now.cheers~!wassalam

Memories are here to stay.

Figured that out a few days ago. Theyre not coming back, nor do you get to go places to meet them.and i mean memories when they were the present.Darn.

I have always been aware of the fact that I’m a very very very nostalgic person. but to which extend i wasnt too sure. till a few days ago. at first it was just that ‘dengar lagu lama’ syndrome. laugh quick, i was listening to songs from the 80s and 90s. to name a few, those of francesca peters’ and jamal abdillah’s, and u noe, those songs sang by ning baizura, sheila majid, fauziah latiff even fauziah ahmad daud. i used to dislike times when my mother would wanna listen to these songs but i didnt, so cam muka masam sikit la.but not now.i think i even love these songs more that the feeling ive towards lagu2 kebaratan.cheywah.now im being sgt skema. but no i mean it.the songs are here to stay.dalam laptopku.

then i figured something else out. i got to contact some old frens. and so this all reminded me of Hazwani di kala tahun 90s and awal 2000.not exactly myself, but it was more about the ppl around me.how ppl actually tolerated my at-times-or-most-of-the-time-mengada2-ego-plus-selfish. haha.god i like teasing myself.its like a fun thing to do.but limited to only myself.i dont quite like it as much when other ppl do it.hehe take note.

anyways. yea as i was saying. i truly miss those ppl.u noe who u r.regardless of the current conditions we’re in.whether or not we still talk to each other, i seriously miss u.and i miss the old times.i miss u ppl.i mean at times we say ‘i miss u’ just for the sake of saying it after not contacting one another lama, but no.this is for real.i miss u.every one of u.those form 1 days.those form2 days.it was a blast.that history is still indeed a blast till now.i remember.although i dont remember everything.i just noe it happened.get me right and all clean.i miss you.haih.ni semua pasal lagu2 ni lah.still.hidayah ure so lucky to be going back this june.haha.tell my sister to get married jugak eh.so that i noe theres an urgency for me to balik.

readers, dont get me wrong.im NOT homesick or something,yg perlu dipujuk or to be told everythings gonna be alrite kinda sedih.lol No.god No.i like it here.just that im wondering why time passes by super fast.wat am i kidding?haha dulu punye la nak besar cepat2.now this is contradicting hazwani!youre barely 18.ahhh 18?sejak bila 18?mana pegi 18 tahun tu?mana pegi 216 bulan tu?mana pegi 864 minggu tu?haha i wonder. thing is.i extremely appreciate wat ppl have actually done for me.for actually being around me. for talking to me.for telling me things i initially did not knoe.big fat THANK YOU.

had my last tutorials for this trimester yesterday and today. and very sedih because i dont get to hear great explanations from my great tutors nemore after this.huhu.its not always that u get tutors yg ‘best’ u noe?this week is the last lecture and tutorial week.yadayadayada.next week im going to be free.just that i need to study for the upcoming papers.1st trimester down.cepat giler?oh no wats happening to the world?cepatnye?

this week im a little paranoid staying in weir hse.we’re playing this assassin game.and each resident is given a name.at random and everyone is to kill the person named with that name yg dier dpt tu.so now im scared of getting to hear the shout right behind me "BANG!URE DEAD".ish even the thought scares me.imagine, nana’s killer was waiting kat this piano room just outside our rooms.haha nervous je keluar.nasib baik dining hall is a no-no place to kill ppl.kalau tidak brape mangsa tersedak?entah

tadi i was jotting down my course plan.for the whole 3 years.my undergraduate degree programme.haha.so yea.ive chosen the subjects, except for the electives which ill choose based on my mood masa tu.liek for next trimester, ive enrolled in this elective yg best. the name’s greek myth and culture.cant wait.wish me big luck.i even checked the course availability masa summer trimester.but that website disappointed me.cam takder je subject commerce.ahhh baru ingat nak rajin2 stay sini and go through an extra period of studying.but well there r always the elective subjects.

tmrw nite we’re having out kapahaka gathering.those who performed will get to see the video and marai will be coming, and we’ll be thanking him or something like that.so im eager to go.

cheers.